Haunt

My old traumatic, phobias or whatever it's said.
I still have it
I still feel it
I still afraid of that feeling
And It comes again, again and again
And it makes me scared, it haunts me
I'm scared, I'm afraid..
if the same thing happened again
with the same person?
Or maybe with the same and the other one?
I hate it
I wanna be free
I don't want it haunt me like this
but heard that story
believe me, it made me moodless
I don't know what to do
Why it should happen again??
You know, I'm not ready for this
I don't know what to do
I hate this