Today

I just love today..
I did my best
I satisfied with the result
I enjoyed today, playing, joking around with ching len
But I didn't watched liong, argh, I wanna see it direct
I'm thinking about this kind of thing, I wanna try..
pengen coba pake poni.
But, later..
I just cut my hair,  it still short..
a little bit felt random feeling..
I was hoping for your presence, but u didn't there
I'm afraid, also scared
I just didn't feel ok
I wanna let u go
because I know, now or later I have to do it, letting go.
but I still care
I wanna just let it flow
but I know, It doesn't work
I just don't know..
my true feeling
Am I really want you?
Am I enough?
I don't know
I don't feel ok....

Panic!!

Panik, nervous, takut, bingung, dan apapun itu..
Aaaaaaaa..
Besok lkk
Takut ada gambar yang lupa, kalo lupa.. 
Jangan sampe..
Ga ngarep banyak, tp tttp harus ngelakuin yg terbaik
tapi panik
nervous
bingung
galau
AAAAAAAAA!!!!
Panik!!!!!!
Oke, ga boleh panik..
Harus, harus, huae, harus, tenang! 
aaaaa, harus tenang...
kalo kata caca, 'tenang, jgn panik'
hhmmm
sakit leher
sakit perut juga
sesek nafas
huee..
oke, keep calm
Wish me luck
semoga ga gugup
I hope I can do the best..

My decided

After a long time I have waited, I have to decided. 

I can't keep on live like this. 

So, I just wanna say thank you,

for all the sweet and beautiful moment,

and also thank you for the bad and sad moment.

I learned a lot. 

I won't forget it. 

Experience is the best teacher.

Thanks a lot

♥ art..

I want..

Suddenly I thought about this things...

Something I can't and couldn't do..

I wanna make my father proud, I haven't made him proud yet

I wanna give him surprise in his 60th b'day

I wanna cook something for him

I wanna show him when my stirrup removed

I wanna show him my 'best' friend

I wanna ask him about a lot of things

I wanna learn a lot of things from him

I wanna play his favorite songs 

I want him to touch my head and hug me when I got 1st rank, for the first time

I want him to attend my graduation 

I want him to give me courage about college and work

I want him to attend my wedding 

I want him to talk with my 'future' husband

I want him to hug and kiss his grandchild 

I just want him to be happy no matter what he does, anytime, anywhere, with anyone, however..

Nothing last forever

People change 

Some peoples stay, some peoples leave

Life goes on 

There's no endless feeling

Nothing last forever..