Panic!!

Panik, nervous, takut, bingung, dan apapun itu..
Aaaaaaaa..
Besok lkk
Takut ada gambar yang lupa, kalo lupa.. 
Jangan sampe..
Ga ngarep banyak, tp tttp harus ngelakuin yg terbaik
tapi panik
nervous
bingung
galau
AAAAAAAAA!!!!
Panik!!!!!!
Oke, ga boleh panik..
Harus, harus, huae, harus, tenang! 
aaaaa, harus tenang...
kalo kata caca, 'tenang, jgn panik'
hhmmm
sakit leher
sakit perut juga
sesek nafas
huee..
oke, keep calm
Wish me luck
semoga ga gugup
I hope I can do the best..

My decided

After a long time I have waited, I have to decided. 

I can't keep on live like this. 

So, I just wanna say thank you,

for all the sweet and beautiful moment,

and also thank you for the bad and sad moment.

I learned a lot. 

I won't forget it. 

Experience is the best teacher.

Thanks a lot

♥ art..

I want..

Suddenly I thought about this things...

Something I can't and couldn't do..

I wanna make my father proud, I haven't made him proud yet

I wanna give him surprise in his 60th b'day

I wanna cook something for him

I wanna show him when my stirrup removed

I wanna show him my 'best' friend

I wanna ask him about a lot of things

I wanna learn a lot of things from him

I wanna play his favorite songs 

I want him to touch my head and hug me when I got 1st rank, for the first time

I want him to attend my graduation 

I want him to give me courage about college and work

I want him to attend my wedding 

I want him to talk with my 'future' husband

I want him to hug and kiss his grandchild 

I just want him to be happy no matter what he does, anytime, anywhere, with anyone, however..

Nothing last forever

People change 

Some peoples stay, some peoples leave

Life goes on 

There's no endless feeling

Nothing last forever..

Wallpaper :3

{- Wallpaper -}

X'mas and New Year :D

♥ 

Friendship :)

-art-

Out of Reach

Out Of Reach

Knew the signs

Wasn’t right

I was stupid for a while

Swept away by you

And now I feel like a fool

So confused,

My heart’s bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn’t see

We were never

Meant to be

Catch myself

From despair

I could drown

If I stay here

Keeping busy everyday

I know I will be OK

But I was

So confused,

My heart’s bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn’t see

We were never

Meant to be

So much hurt,

So much pain

Takes a while

To regain

What is lost inside

And I hope that in time,

You’ll be out of my mind

And I’ll be over you

But now I’m

So confused,

My heart’s bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,

So far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn’t see

We were never

Meant to be

Out of reach,

So far

You never gave your heart

In my reach, I can see

There’s a life out there

For me

I like this song so badly! 

This song also represent how I feel.. 

I hope in 2012 I can reach everything that I couldn't reach in 2011 :)

2011 memory

2011 almost end, 2011 is one of a great year! 
I had a lot of cute, sweet, good, awesome and also bad and sad memory :') 
Awal taun, kelas 10 semester 2.. 
Berhubung ingetan gw ga terlalu bagus, dan yah emg ga ada sesuatu yang spesial banget, gw ga gitu inget, jadi awal" taun ceritanya ga panjang :p
Januari : Oh iya, mulai jadi osis, yah ga mulus, tp gw seneng" aja, hahaha.. 
Februari : Fanny b'day [25 feb] ko ivan b'day [22 feb]
Maret : banyak orang yang ulang taun bulan ini, tgl 1,11,12,13,18,25,27,30. I was 15 this month! :D Merayakannya bersama teman" dan keluarga :) 
yg gw inget, anne bungkusin kado malem" d kamar, dan yah gw tau,, how could I know? 
Anne bawa" gunting, plastik, kertas kado, dan barang" bwt bungkus kado ke kamar, terus..
Anne *teriak dari dlm kamar* : "Cici jangan kesini ya!! Awas loh kalo ke sini!!" *sambil bungkus kado* 
Begitulah si adik..
my second b'day without my beloved father. 
My beloved uncle passed away, heart attack.
April : ada beberapa orang yang juga ulangtahun, lupa tanggalnya, hahahaha.. april, ga ada yg spesial banget sih, berjalan begitu saja..
Mei : My mom's b'day [14 may] taun ini yang paling parah persiapannya, berhubung baru inget 1 minggu sebelomnya, jadi yah kurang memuaskan persiapan kadonya, ckck.. 
Dan beberapa orang lagi yang ulang tahun. dan saya lupa siapa aja.. hahahaha.. 
Oh iya, my Father's eldest sister passed away too.
Juni : Kalo ga salah sih uas, terus yah bulan yang penuh belajar tentunya... dan beberapa orang ulang tahun juga, ga banyak sih juni mah.. 
Juli : Naik kelas! Libur! Woo! 
I got into science class :3 dan saya sekelas juga sebangku dengan Shannaz Natassa! 
Lagi" kita ketemu di kelas 2 cah :') 
Dan yah selama libur, saya datang ke skola, mempersiapkan demo ekskul, C2K! 
Dan demonya cukup lancar, di bantu sama alumni kita, Kodar :D hahaha.. Dan ga nyangka banyak juga yang ikut, dan mereka mau belajar keylogger. hahahahahahahaha... 
Anne juga ultah [8 july] jeng jeng! lupa ngasih apa.. kalo ga salah sih, buku ttg anjing deh. 
Terus,, pertama x ngemos! cape? pasti. pulang sore? yep! dan gw sih ga banyak berguna, ga jadi pk, dan ga jadi sesuatu yang berarti, gw d bagian kesekretariatan (kalo ga salah) , katanya sih kerjanya ngurusin absen sama pin bwt pengurus, tp yg bikin pin juga bukan gw, gw cuma nempelin peniti. Absen? ga tau, mendadak gw ga ada kerjaan, absen juga berakhir di tangan pk dan langsung ke inti, jadi gw ga berperan banyak. seru ga ngemos? lumayan. dan yah mereka ga tau siapa saya, hahahaha.. as usual.
Agustus : Dari juli kita udah mulai siap" bwt pelantikan, tdnya mau agustus, tapi yah berhubung banyak halangan, jadi kita udh ngurus juga jadinya bulan oktober. hahaha.. 
Oh iya, nilai fisika gw jelek, masuk ipa syok banget, yah gitulah. Kimia juga, hiks.. 
Selama persiapan sampe pelantikan kita dan anak" kelas 12 lebih banyak berinteraksi, dan lebih akrab :) 
Papi b'day! [3 agustus] :D missing him so much.
September : Cah b'day! [14 sept]! We made a surprise, and it failed -_- cah nongol dari pintu! dan anak" yang laen malah pada diem, bukan bantu meramaikan -_- begitulah mereka.. terus perang krim! woo!! hahahahahahaahah!! 
Didi and paman b'day [27 sept] :D u can see it in my post. surprise! :D persiapan pelantikan tetap berlanjut, dan anak" mulai aktif ekskul :D 
Oktober : Ching b'day [9 okt] len b'day [4 okt] kodav b'day [16 okt] :D Ching b'day kita makan" di solaria! ching b'daynya tanggalnya bagus loh 9.10.11 ;D bulan" ini banyak yg b'day, makan kue teruussss..
mid test juga bulan ini.. 
pelantikan! hahahahahaha.. akhirnya pelantikan juga! Seru! U can read it in my post too, pelantikan ! :D
November : my father 2 years, ga berasa loh. 
Ke jogja! 24-27 okt! Seru! cape juga sih, but I enjoyed it :) Dan kami makin akrab ;) Dan pertama kalinya gw ngerasain mabok darat.. Dan teman" saya tau ttg wortel. 
Desember : uas, dan remid", aish.. ow ow ow.. bagi rapot! ga nyangka bgt sama nilainya.. 
tukeran kado! kadonya lucu"! XD 
Mom's day! sukses! hahahaha.. ngumpetin kadonya sukses! Kadonya juga sukses! Mami suka! XD
Dan libur! awalnya sih seneng, tapi bosen juga sih, di rumah, seharian nonton.. aish,. 
Oh iya, hari ini baru beres nntn 49 days! Ceritanya bagus, tragis, sedih, seru, endingnya ga ketebak banget, agak mengecewakan sih, kurang memuaskan, tapi gw suka endingnya ga ketebaknya itu, dan beda. unik. Tapi dapet bgt feelnya..
Bentar lagi taun baru loh! ih ga berasa ya 2011 udah mau beres ._. 
Aaaa, sayang juga sih sama 2011, tapi 2012 harus jadi lebih baik! 
So.. 
Love 2011, a lot of story, smile, laugh, tears :')
2012..
I hope I'll be more diligent, more kind, more patient, and be a better person! :D 
I hope I'll have more self confident.. 
I hope I can make everyone happy, I can make everyone smile, especially my beloved family and my beloved friends :* 
(: I hope 2012 will be much better than 2011 :) 
Bye 2011 :)
Welcome 2012 :) 
Hope 2012 will be a Great Year! :D